Tuesday 05/26

Okay. So lastnight, I vented a little. I'm told that this is normal. This is ironic. Nothing feels "normal" anymore. I do believe now that the people at Vandy are doing all that they can - but there's just some things out of their control.

I haven't written today because I have not had the words. Basically, the family has had two meetings with the doctors... one this morning and one to review Taylor's latest catscan. The doctors have told us that they have just about exhausted all of the options... and even gone outside the box... searching for something to stop the seizures. Nothing is really working. Even the medicine that does work can only be continued for a limited time and then impacts her organs.

We are still hopeful and praying for a miracle. The doctors are still holding out some hope - but are also preparing us for the worst scenarios. The catscan confirmed that the swelling in her brain is global. And yet they will try again tomorrow to do the dye test that may tell us specifically which areas of the brain are functioning and if she may still be a candidate for surgery. There's some other bad stuff that I just don't want to talk about. Just know that we need - that we are all begging - for a miracle.